I regret saying I felt like Chris' whore. I don't know what I was thinking....very much my own personal irrational paranoia getting to me. Where do these ideas come from? And why do I keep telling myself over and over that they're right when they are very obviously not? After talking with Rose again, it finally came to me that I am not treating myself with the kindness I deserve. I am going to change that-- and more importantly, I am going to be straight with myself. I am going to be frank, honest, and realistic about what I am and what I am not.
I am a daughter, sister, best friend, friend, sometime girlfriend, confidant, source of support, student, writer, artist, actress, designer, unique, special, different, beautiful, childlike, mature, immature, adult, silly, serious, honest, kind, helpful, wonderful.
I am not unredeemable, self-loathing, dishonest, worthless, ugly, boring, burdensome, or ignored-- and most importantly, I am nobody's whore.